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Wednesday, June 30, 2010

Story of AIDS

AIDS = acquired immunodeficiency syndrome
AIDS also can be 'anytime in danger situation'

AIDS is a disease of the immune system caused by human immunodeficiency virus (HIV). Malaysian are mostly not aware about AIDS. How do they get AIDS? This is a good link to read more on HIV/AIDS (suitable for laymen) -> AVERT international AIDS charity

Human don't actually "get" AIDS. One person might get infected with HIV, and later might develop AIDS. You can get infected with HIV from anyone who's infected, even if they don't look sick and even if they haven't tested HIV-positive yet. The blood, vaginal fluid, semen, and breast milk of people infected with HIV has enough of the virus in it to infect other people. Most people get the HIV virus by:

  • having sex with an infected person
  • sharing a needle (shooting drugs) with someone who's infected
  • being born when their mother is infected, or drinking the breast milk of an infected woman
The picture below shows you symptoms of AIDS:
Today I have a story to share on AIDS. Well, Mr A started to 'play' with drugs at the age of 23 years old. He started by taking oral stimulant drug. Later on, he switched to injection type of drug. The problem here is needle-sharing. For them to get the daily 'high', they need to spend between RM70-RM100+ per day!! (calculate per month, they can buy BMW!)

Usually it will take 10 years from the time being infected to the development of AIDS. For my patient, he is just 7 years since he started injecting various drug of abuse. At the age of 30, he is in the stage of AIDS. Few months back, he is a happy person, who comes daily to drink methadone. Young guy, with the heart to change, he no longer into the dark world of addiction.

Too bad, his body cannot take it anymore, and there it goes.. immune system of the body gave up.. HIV virus getting stronger and replicate rapidly. Symptoms come. He complained of loss of appetite, nausea and vomiting, lethargy, loss of weight..

He is no longer the joyful person that i know. Now he hardly able to walk, talk, suffering in pain everyday. Now i deliver methadone to his house daily (i know i am not suppose to do that according to methadone dispensing policy, but who cares about policy, sometimes we have to change according to situation). Really heart broken and sad each time i see pass the methadone to him. Living in a kampung style home, with only his mother to take care of him, really make me sad.

The other day, he came to methadone clinic, with his brother carrying him. Somehow, I feel tear coming out, but i have to control. Even a few of my methadone client also cried. Methadone clinic in KK Sungai Tekam Utara is the best so far. All my client are very close with each other. This 9 months I am working here, there is a bond that i develop with them. They trust me and willing to share with me any information that I request. Even they willing to do anything i ask them to do.

Each day driving pass Mr A house, I will feel that I am lucky person. I have a fixed salary, family, friends. I can eat any nice food that I want to. I can afford to go holiday whenever I wish. A few of my friend say that I am a positive-thinking person. Well, I have to think positively, why would you want to make yourself suffer. Why would you want to be angry with silly thing? Just live happily and enjoy your life to the fullest. Go and learn the thing that you wish to learn, it is never too old to learn. Go holiday..

I don't know when Mr A will leave this world, but from my experience, he may not live long. So all I can do is to visit him daily and spend few minutes to talk with him. Maybe he dont need to suffer anymore after he leave this world. One thing I learn indirectly from him is .. to think before you do anything.. For his case, he choose to inject and share needle. By the time he regret, it is too late. For us, we should think twice before making any decision..

Friday, June 18, 2010

Redang Trip 2010 Part 2

Continue from previous post Redang Trip 2010 Part 1, let me continue with more pictures, mainly underwater pictures.

Let me start with surface picture. That is me and Ammar (MA KK Chini).
Next is picture of Taufik, Ammar, Ee Wei, and Ee Siew.Next picture I dont know what to say. They are grabbing for a single life jacket? Or they want to crush Kheng Ying.. lol..Next is picture of Ammar and Siew Chin. Luckily she got the guts to snorkel, or else will be wasted this Redang Trip.William Tong is very brave, because he didn't even rent life jacket. From the moment our boat stop in the middle of the sea, he straight dive into the sea, leaving us and other people amazed. Nice picture of him feeding fishes.Ee Wei is also quite daring to take off her life jacket to take this picture. Nice post with Ammar at the back holding her life jacket and helping her in case she struggle in the middle of the sea.I took a few underwater pictures, and I admit I dont really know how to pose underwater. With the help of one diving instructor, he push me hard deep into the sea (of course have to take deep breath first), then there i go, dive as deep as possible on my own and ready to pose. Deep as in 6-8metres deep (2 floors deep!!). I uploaded 2 pictures here. As you can see, corals are not nice and not much fishes in the spot that I dive into.Next time, I definitely want to go take diving pictures again, and will practice posing in swimming pool first. That is me getting back to the surface and feel nice, first time dive deep down into the sea. Nice experience.

Saturday, June 05, 2010

JJ Lin Jun Jie - Now That She's Gone


Girl you know I miss you so
I didn't know you had to go
You've had enough of our distance baby
Before I had the chance to say
I'm staying with you
For the rest of my life Oh Oh~

Don't keep telling me these words
You don't know how much it hurts Woo
And I'll promise you eternity
If you promise me your stay
But now it's too late
I'm no longer the man that I was

I will go on without her
Like a fool who's too sure
I'm like a bird who's lost her wing
A fire without its flame
I don't know how to be strong
When my love has to move on
I am a song without a soul
Now that she's gone
What's left of us is this song

Don't keep telling me these words Oh no
You don't know how much it hurts Woo
And I'll promise you eternity
If you promise me your stay
But now it's too late
I'm no longer the man that I was Wu~

I will go on without her Wu~
Like a fool who's too sure
I'm like a bird who's lost her wing
A fire without its flame
I don't know how to be strong
When my love has to move on
I am a song without a soul
Now that she's gone
What's left of us is this song Woo
Oh yeah I know I don't know
Baby I am know I'am a foul

And I will go on without her
Like a fool who's too sure
I'm like a bird who's lost her wing
A fire without its flame
I don't know how to be strong
When my love has to move on
I am a song without a soul
Now that she's gone
What's left of us is this song

This is our song without a soul
Now that you're gone
What's left of us in this song