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Tuesday, March 16, 2010

Almost Breakdown

Words to describe myself today..

Busy..
Stress..
Humiliation..
Tiredness..
Loss of focus..
Feel down..

I got lots of personal thought to blog today. It will be more of complaint. I know I should not complain much, but just let me voice it out here.

Busy.. Everyday is busy day for me. My work now as YM Jerantut is terrible. The job is never ending you know. Apart from my core job of dispensing, counseling and methadone, I have to do purchasing. Well, the word 'purchasing' may seem simple. But the whole process of purchasing is not simple. From screening my pembantu's order, sending to Pejabat to get the LO number, then have to push Pharmaniaga to send the medicine, the getting all the Delivery Order number back to me from all the clinics in Jerantut (not easy, as Jerantut is the biggest district and transportation is not easily available). Then got to send back to Pejabat to wait for Invoice, then only payment can be done. 15 days period given to me to settle the payment once all items has been sent by Pharmaniaga.

I have to attend meeting at least once every 2 weeks. Meeting after meeting will add on more task into my organizer. Damn meeting! I used to like meeting, because can escape from Sg Tekam, but now I start to get tired of attending meeting.

Taking over someone's job is not easy. I prefer to start it all fresh. All of thing need to be changed to make a better system. The key word here is sustainable work flow. I want to create a system that the future YM who take over my job can just do is with ease. Proper filing system, proper recording system, proper arrangement of medicines..etc..

Stress.. no need to explain much.. but I got way to destress myself..

Humiliation.. Well today I face humiliation. I do not wish to mention name here. But I am still thinking of a way to handle such situation. The person who humiliate me can just talk nice in front of me half an hour after that. Shit!! I choose to just keep quiet and smile to the person, when the person humuliate me in front of a big group. The mistake is not done by me ok? I just take over this post of YM February 2010 and those thing that happen in 2009 2008 2007 .. is beyond my control.

Tiredness.. Yesterday I had not enough sleep, and I went for badminton. Plus today Pharmaniaga send their stock to my pharmacy. All need to be arranged into the store.

Loss of focus.. Well, I admit I do lose focus sometimes. I have to keep on remind myself to stay focus. Successful person is someone who can focus.. to achieve target..

Feel down.. today I just feel down.. Even falling down, we got to stand up again. So, I tell myself to feel 'up'!!

By the way, today is not all bad. My room's aircond has finally been fixed. Can sleep with aircond and can switch on aircond to 'cool' me down. HAIO shoots up 8% today. :)

Working in PKD Jerantut is a good training ground for me to learn principle of life. Learn to handle various kind of people. Although I am the boss of pharmacy here, but I admit I am not a good leader. I would use these few words to describe myself as boss; soft, not fierce, not strict. One close friend once told me a leader is someone who can inspire and motivate their staff. This is a skill that I wish to master before I leave Jerantut.

Just stay focus.. focus.. focus..

6 comments:

py said...

I think leader have to be a bit fierce and strict..if not others wont obey..of os secara budi bicara also lar :P from py

L2G said...

HP, Jia You ok? when feel down n tired don't feel hesitate to contact me k? I will always have time for u, sorry that i didn't do my job as fren as good as before but i will try hard if u give me the chance

L2G said...

HP, Jia You ok? when feel down n tired don't feel hesitate to contact me k? I will always have time for u, sorry that i didn't do my job as fren as good as before but i will try hard if u give me the chance

hp84 said...

to [py] and [l2g]
thanks a lot.
being a leader is not easy, but i will learn from here..
l2g, i will find you more often :)

Boo said...

what is YM and PKD?

hp84 said...

to [Boo]
YM = yang menjaga, kind of the person who take care for the whole daerah
PKD = Pejabat Kesihatan Daerah